house leaves journal

johnny's mother's letters really creeped me out, at the beginning, it was all talking about her love for her son, and then towards the end, she said that all those previous letters are only pieces of her imagination, she made everything up, in fact, Johnny had wrote her a couple letter and she hardly did anything. from some fractions in her letter, I found out that she must did some horrible things to Johnny and she is totally crazy. then she started to feak out, repeating the same words over and over again, and the way words are written, the font, size gave me a stronger feeling and I can totally feel her confusion, frustration and insanity. and she died.......